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Bush flies in
I'm sorry to say it, and clearly it is not a comprehensive condemnation of the entire South, but it does seem that any society that builds and builds until it has an enormous city on land below sea level, and next to an enormous great river is several coffees short of a breakfast. What the holy hell were theyt thinking of? But that is for later. For now, the question is what is Dubya doing?
He seems to be able to mobilise hundreds and thousands of millions of dollars a day to pour into Iraq, but is apparently doing fuck all to address the disaster on a national scale.
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2.9.05 10:02
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The flood ....
It has been an overwhelming week for the city of Houston. I am overwhelmed as well.
Four people recently left my home and soon after, twenty-five thousand more or so entered the city.
The Astrodome and the Reliant Stadium are less than 2 miles away from where I live and I pass this area everyday on my way to work and back. Last Thursday I was at the Astrodome trying to do whatever I could to help. Many people were there too. But it was as if HELP was not enough. Many were very appreciative and thankful but many more were angry, weary and distraught.
I took on these emotions and no amount of tears I will ever shed will wash away the impact of the image, the smell and the energy that is in the Astrodome.
It is on that day, and in that space that I was able to confront my racist mind, my ignorance and my selfishness. It was on that day that I was able to experience the act of giving without even thinking.
I have been a nurse for more than 9 years and none of the stories that I had written in "What would Florence say" could ever come close to any of the stories I could write today, tomorrow or forever.
I too have watched the media parade their opinions and their film footage of the aftermath of Katrina. I've listened to debates on who is to blame for the slow rescue response. I've heard most of the speeches given by those that have chosen to pull out the race card but I will tell you this:
It is easy to say what we say when we are on the outside looking in, but when you find yourself in the middle of a flood of homeless people, all of what you hear or see vanish from your mind and the only thing that feels real is the life that you have, reflected on those that do not have, and you feel ashamed, and you truly feel humbled.
You realize that what you have is nothing, and you wish you too had nothing, so that you could walk amongst those that have lost many things, but not their dignity.
And at the end of the day, after having been touched by so many people, you end up feeling like you have everything.
All that you need, have and are, once again, is love.
I am thankful for the flood that cleansed my heart.
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6.9.05 02:31
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The space ....
There's this nice house, you see. We met about a month ago. I was looking and she was looking to. Looking for someone to fit in, and I was looking for a place to hang out for awhile, till it's time to move on again.
She's rather big. Bigger than what we need, C and I. Not too big, not like a mansion, not like a 4 bedroom home (she only has two) but she is definitely big. My perception anyway.
There is a wonderful hedge that surrounds her, Japanese boxwood 3 feet high and pink azaleas a little over 4 feet. There are no blooms now, but the neighours tell me that they're pink.
There's a big oak tree in the backyard, I would say over one hundred years old and he spreads his branches way over the roof and into the yard and driveway. It's pretty.
I don't have much. We don't have much. I don't want much. A sofa, a bed, a table, 4 chairs, a tv, dvd and cd machine. A few plants and stuff. I like to keep things to a minimum. I guess you could call me a minimalist.
I'm sitting here in a room with white wood panelling, a white sofa, white table and white floor rug over hardwood floors. I like the colour white. Easy to see the dirt. And there better be no dirt!
There's two other open rooms, a dining and a living ... hmmm, a living room.
Wonder why they call it a 'living room'.
I'm thinking that with all the space in the living room that is right now empty I can fill it with whatever I want to fill it with.
Like I said before, life is like music. The people you meet are like musical notes and we all make a song. Like one person said, "that's why they call it a UNI verse."
I'm going to get a piano so that I can play again.
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6.9.05 23:12
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The Journey of a CLEANSE ....
The Autumn nears and as the leaves start their graceful downward dance and most of the plants in the garden have shed their summer's bloom, I too will start my season. The season of LIGHT.
Light in all due respect and meaning of the word. Light as in 'light as a feather' and light as in 'a beam of light'.
The package arrived last night and it is morning but it is MY evening. This Saturday past brought on a FULL moon and a proper moonbath was done with organic salt, as I lay in the hot water enjoying the fragrance of sage and lavendar and such .. with the melody's of Beethoven's songs whilst the moon stood FULL outside the window sill.
It is YOUR morning but this is MY evening and I have just embarked on my Journey of a CLEANSE.This will be an 8 day colon cleanse, Oh Lord help me during these 8 days! I've looked forward to this for many years and the anticipation grew stronger within the last few months as I prepared my knowledge of this. Many books have I read and websites visited trying to feel around for the right and proper direction that felt 'intuitively' good for me. After finding the right product(s) I let time go by as I allowed my mind and body to prepare for the welcoming of this Journey. Day 1 of 8: This is actually Day 1 of a 3 day Pre-Cleanse. Since I've quite cut out meats altogether and veggies, fruits and seeds have been my staple, and according to the GUIDE included. It states that if you have 1 Bowel Movement a Day you are considered slightly constipated and you need to take 2 capsules of the Digestive Stimulator 30 - 60 minutes before dinner and one packet of Toxin Absorber mixed with organic apple juice before bedtime. I just took the capsules over 30 minutes ago and am ready to have a dinner of baby spinach, alfalpha sprouts and sliced tomatoes. I will read a bit, then drink the Toxin absorber before I sleep. This is morning like I said, but it is MY evening, since I work nights. I'll wake up later this afternoon and have a light breakfast of blueberries and raspberries with flaxseed then be off to work. I plan to document my experiences during this CLEANSE so bear with me. I am feeling light headed just a little and maybe it is all in my head really since I feel as though I am expecting something to happen. The goal right now is to be able to produce 3 Bowel Movements a day. When I awake this afternoon, I should expect to have 3 Bowel Movements, either at work or at least before I return home tomorrow morning. I'll stop here and eat my light dinner then take the ToXin absorber drink. I hope the apple juice drowns out the apparent nasty taste. Wish me luck. Oh and by the way, I definitely am feeling something but I cannot actually describe it. Probably nervous as all hell.  (
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20.9.05 15:40
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Journey of a CLEANSE: Day 2
Upon waking up to your evening (which is my morning) I prepared my self for what I would be expecting to feel after taking the 2 capsules of Digestive Stimulator and drinking the Toxin Absorber. I felt fine.
I drank a glass of distilled water that had been sitting out on the counter on top of a piece of paper in where I wrote the word L-O-V-E. I've been taking in my waters like this eversince I came across Masaru Emoto's study on water absorbing conscious thought.
I then proceeded to eat a small bowl of fresh papaya slices.
Shortly after, I had my first bowel movement of the day, and then 30 minutes later, another one. By the time I arrived at work and finished receiving report from the off going nurse, I had another one.
During the 12 hour shift I drank plenty of distilled water (without the word L-O-V-E this time) and sipped on herbal tea and a broth made of Marmite. My lunch consisted of a small portion of raspberries, blueberries and strawberries (organically grown).
At about 4 am (my evening) I took again, 2 capsules of the licorice flavoured Digestive Stimulator and then about 30 minutes later had my dinner at about 4:45'ish in the morning. Dinner consisted of the usual, baby spinach, alfalfa sprouts and tomatoes.
Prior to going home I had another small bowel movement. Yahoo!!! That makes 4 bowel movements in one day! yahoo! It's working!
I must say that these bowel movements are NOT diarrhea-like. They are soft and formed.
I am now home and I just consumed a glass of the Toxin Absorber before going to bed. I don't feel unusually tired or hungry.
This is the 2nd day of the Pre Cleanse. After the 3rd Pre Cleanse Day, I will start a full 5 days of just taking the 2 capsules of Digestive Stimulator, and drinking the Toxin Absorber - 5 times a day spaced at every 3 hours.
They say that if I feel hungry I can drink clear organic juice (but not citrus) and drink herbal tea or make an organic vegetable broth to take in between.
The important think is to drink a LOT of water to help the Toxin Absorber flush out all the toxins that have been in my body for almost 41 years!
Okay, I will sleep now and see what happens when I wake up. Thank goodness I'll be off for two days.
I was tempted to actually take a picture of my bowel movement(s).
I will tell you this now: Once I start the 5 day straight cleanse (after the 3 day Pre Cleanse) I WILL take photos of the mucoid plaque that is supposed to come out!!!
~Namaste
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21.9.05 15:34
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Journey of a CLEANSE: Day 3
Hmph!
The most challenging thing about doing a colon cleanse is when you also have to watch out for a hurricane coming your way.
I was starting to doubt the timing of this cleanse but then I realized that the best time is NOW. Now when the whole Gulf Coast and County and city will be getting a cleansing of its own - whether they like it or not. The only difference is that I can flush away MY debris. Not so with a State disaster.
Hmph.
Only 2 bowel movements today. Not good, not good at all. I'm behind by 1 to 2. Must be the stress.
I'm glad we decided not to evacuate. After watching traffic coverage on the tele - all those people who stayed in their cars in 100 degree heat, ran out of gas, water, and whose cars that overheated .. staying on the road for 12 hours just to make a 12 mile trek - wow.
C will be heading out to work in the Hilton downtown and will stay their while the hurricane blows over. I'll be at Memorial Herman on Friday evening and won't leave till they allow me to.
We spent the day driving around and Houston looked deserted. We wanted to pick up a few items at the store but no stores were open. It was funny seeing a Walmart parking lot SO EMPTY at 4 in the afternoon!
We finally found a Randall's and when we got in, the shelves were near empty.
When we got home, I made dinner for C and then we started to pack. I taped up the windows and he cleaned up the garden, putting everything that was not cemented down, in the garage. We sat and watched the movie "Return to Me" and then started moving furniture inwards ..
Not sure what Day 4 will be like. Hmph.
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22.9.05 10:15
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Journey of a Cleanse: Day 4
No poops. No poops today whatsoever!
Something is wrong. I need to poop! I need to have 3 - 4 poops a day! Something is wrong. (
I'm spending the weekend over at the hospital to ride out the storm. There must've been a whole lot of prayers here that sent Rita slightly more eastward and north. As it is, Houston will not be getting the brunt of her rage .. but the winds may still be a problem. Come Monday morning I will know the status of the house. (
Well, I gotta do something about being 'clogged up'! I've been drinking quite a bit of water too! Must be Rita.
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23.9.05 07:57
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